Baking Through My Journey As a Doctor to Be

today is my brother's 13th birthday and i miss him so so so much ;( yesterday night when me n sis sang him birthday song via skype [we even had candles on lemon and apple tarts], i was on the edge of bursting into tears... i just simple miss him and wonder how he is doing back home. not that dad and mom do not good care of him, it's just that both my parents are busy too~~~ and all of us have our own problems to deal with... i don't know, i am not sure, yesterday when i saw him, his ignorance and innocence make my heart warm yet sore. If you haven yet known, my brother is a autistic child. He is healthy, he is handsome, he is cute, he is everything but normal. Zhung ee doesn't talk much and he lives in his little world doing his own thing. i don't know whether he enjoy living his life this way but for sure, we are happy to have him in our life. ZHUNG EE, 二姐 LOVE YOU!!! and you know daddy, mummy and 大姐 love you that much too... zhung ee has changed our lifes and made them different, but i've never felt any better. Zhung ee is the person i love the most among my family. anyway, i just get to choose between four, so i dun have much choice :P. or maybe i shud put it this way : ZHUNG EE IS THE PERSON I LOVE THE MOST IN THIS WHOLE WORLD. okie, this sounds better ^^ actually me n zhung ee have quite many things in common, we like to draw, we like to swim, we like KFC, we like to sing, he likes to watch the Lion King and Pochahontas (only 2 of them), i like to watch cartoon, i like to bake n cook and zhung ee likes to eat..... the list goes on. maybe this is the reason why we are so close.... besides, he is part of the reason why i am doing medicine. i long to know what cause autistic and i want him to get well. (yea i know this is dramatic but i was just 14++ by that time, what else do u expect :P) and now i am doing medicine, which means i am one step closer to finding out my answer (not to mention that there is still a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG way to go), but i realize that maybe i won be capable to solve this mystery because pheyyee is not that intelligent after all. i am suffocating. have u ever felt that you are getting stupider and stupider because people around you are getting smarter and smarter? have u ever felt that u've reach the limit and that you cannot go any further? have you ever thought that a day should have 48 hours instead of 24? have you ever felt like killing those people who tell you freshman year is the best year you could have in your life (if this is true, i can't imagine what my life would be like for the rest of my life!!!!) have you ever studied until u feel like you are going to faint instead of sleep at night? Yuppie, this is how i am feeling right now :P so u know what? there is a change in plan, pheyyee won't be a neurologist (because her brain is giving in) but pheyyee will work hard and earn lots n lots of money (有点肤浅) and give zhung ee the best life ever!!!! Happy Birthday Zhung Ee!!!!

the siblings
he loves drawing

carefree and happy

LOVE YOU!!!

happy birthday to rachel's mum and bill too ^^