Starting Out My Journey As a Doctor to Be

Sunday, April 29, 2007

things that make a difference

i'm a very emotional person. there are times when i'm very happy and excited and positive and for the next second, i am totally depressed, down and breaking down. i'm always wondering -- am i normal? (btw, what makes a person normal, medically, this is a very sensitive word) well, i might be a little psychic, just a little not normal in the sense that i feel more and i feel longer. this doesn't make sense to you? good, it is meant to be so ^^ Regarding the issue of my huge mode change, it is the things that I do, the things that people around me do and said that make a difference. for example:-

dad and mom are interested in what i have been doing in school (dissection in particular) --> this gives me the urge to carry on
friends gathering around after dinner chit chatting and gossip --> i feel the warmth
a friend called and we had some casual chat --> that makes me feel good
granny told me not to give up once you've made up your dicision --> that makes me carry on
actually do stuffs on cadavers --> i know what i want to be
a good meal --> that makes me feel contended
watching grey's anatomy (last 3 episodes of season 2) --> i end up with a broken heart
raining at night is refreshing while raining during the day is depressing ^^
and the lists go on........

so everything happens for a reason, i am not insane, i'm just not that sane.

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